Thursday, September 10, 2009

Things Change...

Why is it that whenever I actually find someone...or rather many someones that are actually interested in me, I am not FREAKIN interested in them! The ONE person who I AM interested in possibly creating a more...intermate relationship with, doesnt FREAKIN want one with me!!!! There are so many others now its starting to kind of FREAK ME OUT!!!
Ok i will start from the beginning...
About 2 weeks ago I started to text this REALLY nice guy called Mitch... And we got along so well, he seemed perfect for me! He was just the right kind of dirty and SO cute as well! hehe but then he began only texting me at night... and only texting me about dirty stuff so that I would make him... excited. Then he stopped texting and talking to me ALTOGETHER! But I got over it after a while, i mean he only really wanted me for sex anyway and all our conversations revolved around that. Anyway last friday night I went to my first "alcoholic" party (and yes I WAS an alcohol virgin =S) with my friend Shannon. We met some other people there too. Like this guy, who I USED to like a long time ago and we are still real good friends, Danny. And during the night and a few days before the party we were flirting HEAPS!!! and I touched him quite a bit too but he didnt seem to mind...he touched me to! But anyway I'd thought "Hey! we got really close, that was such a special night" HE didnt seem to think so though...a few days after the party we talked again and he told me 3 other girls that he is "interested" in, one being Shannon the friend i went with... Well this was quite a shock. But he seemed quite cryptic about it too, saying "oh crap I dont tell you now." So i told him to tell me a few of them... SO maybe he didnt tell me them all...but i dnt wanna get my hopes up!
Anyway resently this other guy called Brian has been talking and texting me a lot too and now HE seems really devoted! But he can be really annoying and quite up himself at times so i have no idea whether i should lead him on and like him or whether i should just be his friend...If i do lead him on then I am practially just using him because hes the only guy that seems to really want me..and he doesnt even want me!!! I have no idea what to do! Life is so confusing! and why did all of this stuff with Mitch, Danny and Brian have to happen SO CLOSE TOGETHER! i mean maybe if it had happened over a number of months instead of days then i would be able to handle it better! :(